Let’s try to be healthy-mentally and physically. Let’s try to get at least eight hours of sleep. Let’s try to be awake before 11 am. Let’s even try to be ready for the day rather than just awake. Let’s try to be reliable and responsible. Let’s try to make every problem into a solution. …
i’m beginning to realize that no matter how much fat i lose, i will never have a “flat stomach.” i never have in my life. it’s just the shape of my body. even when i was a kid, my belly always stuck out farther than my ribs. and it wasn’t fat, it was just my organs and muscles. now i’ve almost completely eliminated my belly fat (cha ching!) but i still do not have that flat, concave belly you see on most girls in magazines.
and you know what, i’m okay with that. i might not have a flat stomach, but soon i’ll have a six pack (ok ok, let’s not exaggerate). and i still think i look damn good with my little belly. it is a part of my personality, and a reminder that i am a strong, nourished woman whose body will carry and nourish children one day. well maybe… after being home for a week straight i’m beginning to wonder if i’ll ever wanna have babies, lol. but either way. yay for bellies!
aren’t they supposed to be “models?” a “model” of anything else is an accurate representation of the real thing. a model car, a model home… it’s supposed to show us what the real thing looks like. why, then, are models all a size 0, when a normal person is far from it? is this what we’re supposed to “model” ourselves after? a stick person? that is not beauty. in fact, some of them even look deformed. i was just looking at swimsuit models, and one girl’s hips were so tiny that she looked like an upside-down triangle, top heavy, when in all reality she was probably about 26 inches around her chest.
i find it disgusting that we are made to believe that this is perfection. that this is what we’re “supposed” to look like. why do they design clothes to fit the measurements of a dress hanger? are real people supposed to buy and wear the clothing, or is it all just reserved for mannequins? i was just shopping online for dresses and the measurements they gave, measured from a small, were 28 inches around the chest and 26 around the waist. i don’t know any females who are 28 inches around the chest. not one. that’s a size small? i’m a small person, and i couldn’t even fit those measurements around my body.
the fashion industry needs a huge wake up call. sooner or later, i would hope, they’ve got to see how ridiculous it is.
A few days ago, I was sent some fiber bars to try out. I won’t name the company, because they were extremely generous to send me free stuff, even though I told them I don’t eat fiber bars anymore. I was honest and told them I’d pass them on to someone who would try them.
was two weeks ago, and i came in at 121.8 lbs. i reminded myself of my goal: to be at 120 by june 1st. i’d felt like i’d reached a plateau over the last couple weeks, though. i was going back and forth between kalamazoo and home a lot, not going for as long of runs, not eating well at all (come on, it’s home!). so yesterday i was back in kzoo at my old apartment with the scale i’ve been using all along. i hadn’t eaten in a few hours and was pretty hungry, so i knew my stomach was empty, and i decided to weigh myself.
120.4 lbs! yes!
i know i’m always going on and on about how weight is just a number, and i stand by this. if i weighed myself right now i’d probably be a pound heavier, maybe even more. but 120 lbs is a milestone i’ve been longing to reach, and i’ve reached it! i haven’t seen the number 120 on the scale since well before freshman year of college. i’m hitting the mall and going bikini shopping first chance i get!
i love cooking. i love being creative and taking an idea and building on it and experimenting and tasting and changing and creating a meal. i love sitting down and enjoying that meal after the work i put into it. and i love cooking not just for myself but for others, for people i love. when you cook a meal and feed a person, you are nourishing them. when i cook i put care and time into preparing (somewhat) healthy and delicious and comforting food. in my opinion, even if it’s not an extraordinarily healthy meal, anything homemade is 100 times better than store or restaurant-bought food.
to me, cooking is one of the most loving things you can do for somebody. you could just as easily go to the store or a fast food place and get something already made, but i think putting the time and energy into making a meal for someone is a way of passing love and positive energy from one person to another. yeah i know i sound crazy, but think about it. you are giving that person food, energy, life.
whenever i cook something for somebody i love, i take a “love bite.” a bite out of the food before i serve it to them, to see how it tastes and most importantly, check that it’s not poisonous, of course. it’s something that my mother did to my food when i was little, and it was always met with a whiney “mommmm!” …but when i unpacked my lunch box in the cafeteria at school every day and there was a bite taken out of the center of the sandwich, i always secretly smiled to myself. love bites, to me, are a symbol of the time and care i put into making the food, and a reminder that i’m doing it not out of obligation, but out of love.
today i went to the grocery store and bought a few things to make a delicious lunch to bring my man at work. and for me too, of course.
enter turkey, bacon, swiss, lettuce and tomato sandwiches on fresh whole grain ciabatta bread, with a side of fresh pineapple and strawberries. oh and a heath bar to split, because i have been craving sweets so much lately.
nothing exceptionally healthy about this meal, but nothing really unhealthy about it either. in my opinion, anything made with love is good for the body and soul* …and this was definitely made with love, because i burnt my finger on the bacon grease/pan :(
*might be a joke in this context but i truly do believe this. i’ll have to touch on cooking in another post in the near future.
i ate a late breakfast this morning (two eggs with a slice of cheese on toast and half an avocado), then came to campus without the intention of being here all day long. i went for a run, then to the library, and the next thing i know it’s 7:30 and (with the exception of a banana, a little cup of mandarin oranges, and a handful of almonds) i haven’t eaten!
“When I see those magazines, I shrink a little bit and wonder “what if” I were to start working out twice a week, four times a week, maybe a little bit every day!? What if I started to abstain from second helpings and followed all of the advice from those magazines. You know what advice I mean: drink a lot of water to fill yourself up, take tiny bites, eat super slow…Could I then compete and wear “whatever I want?” Would my life be perfect then… if only I were really truly thin? And then I think of the sadness and the intensity of our culture’s influence and its obsession with perfection in the form of thin. And I think of the millions of young girls — and boys — who are growing up thinking that happiness lies in how thin they are. And I think of the generations of women who fought for us to have equal rights in the voting booths, in the factories, on the streets, and even in our homes. And I try to remember that the value of my character, my dignity, and the potential to somehow repair this fragmented world matters more than the size of my dress. And so I try little by little to find clothing that I feel dignifies my body without the need for a girdle, to enjoy my body as it is, to love my body for birthing children and nursing them, to respect my body as it changes and grows, and to nourish it the best way I know how. With seconds.”—Mayim Bialik, on body image
I finally reached my 20 mile goal this week! The past few weeks have been somewhat hectic, with graduation and moving home and what not. But this week I finally reached (and surpassed, in fact) my goal of running 20 miles. I did 21.17 miles. Another 20 next week and hopefully then I’ll be able to bump it up. I’ve been trying to make my runs longer on average, so that I don’t necessarily have to run more often, just more at one time. Now that I’m back home my regular route is 4 miles, whereas in Kalamazoo my shortest route was 3 miles.
Also, I’ve been taking my poor fat dog (family dog) for walks. He LOVES walking/running with me, because I’m the only one who takes him! He’s so huge that he’s hard to control, just because he gets so excited to go out. Today was only our second time out and he was such a good boy :) We ran most of the route!
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Although I agree that resistance training is wonderful and no one should be afraid of it, I must disagree with what Nutritionista has to say here. Yes, weight training is vital to losing weight and getting in shape. As she states, it increases your muscle mass, thus giving you a tighter, more toned appearance and increasing your metabolism. Trust me, I’ve seen tremendous results from lifting just twice a week for the past five or so months.
But to say that muscle “replaces the fat with muscle mass” is either a terrible choice of words, or just completely wrong.
I think the myth came from the idea that if you bulk up the muscle “underneath” the fat, you’ll just look even bigger. But that’s not how it works. Muscle does not create or build itself on top of fat, but instead replaces the fat with muscle mass (source).
When you lift weights you are increasing your muscle mass, which lies underneath your fat. So in reality, if you are trying to lose fat and you are only lifting, you a) aren’t going to see very good results, and b) may actually appear to bulk up, because you are building muscle underneath your fat, but not getting rid of the fat on top. For example, when people try to tone their bellies by doing crunches and core exercises, they may actually begin to see their belly stick out more, because they are building that muscle underneath, and still have a layer of fat over the top.
Contrary to popular belief, muscle tissue does not replace fat tissue. When you resistance train, you are not magically turning fat into muscle. Think about it. How is that even possible? Muscle and fat are two totally different types of tissue, and they are not interchangeable. That’s why it’s essential to incorporate cardiovascular exercise into your workout routine if you are trying to get rid of fat. Lifting weights itself burns calories, but it requires a different type of energy usage. Basically, you burn carbohydrates instead of fat (see my fat burning post), so resistance training by itself will tone your muscles, but you must do fat-burning cardio in order to burn fat and therefore show the toned muscles underneath.
That’s why it is impossible to target certain areas, like your belly or your arms, to tone up. I think a lot of people think when you work your arms, for example, you are somehow taking that fat and transforming it into muscle. If you really think about it, that’s a ridiculous misconception. You can (and should) use resistance training to build and strengthen those muscles, but if you want to have a slimmer appearance, you must decrease your overall body fat, and the only way to do that is through cardiovascular exercise.
people forget that when you eat you are feeding your body. not your emotions, not your appetite or your tastes, but your body. the entity that carries you around inside of it each and every day, and upon which we depend just to be alive. if you don’t supply it with what it needs, it’s going to break down on you.
it bothers me when people are afraid of food and of calories. it’s energy! fuel! it’s good for you! eat!
today is not going to include a weigh-in, because i’ve already started my day (weigh-ins are for the morning, before i’ve eaten), BUT it will include a healthy diet (and thus a food journal), a moderate run, and a full-body workout at the gym, as well as errands and enjoying the beautiful weather.
one cup plain quaker oats made with water and a splash of skim milk, sweetened with a drizzle of honey (could have done without) and a sprinkle of cinnamon
one bowl multigrain cheerios with flax seed and skim milk
1/2 can tuna, mixed with 1/4 red delicious apple, splash of lemon juice, and sprinkle of cayenne pepper on whole wheat toast with butter and sliced swiss cheese (the other half is in the fridge for later!)
1/2 red delicious apple
one package (of two) Nature Valley Oats and Honey granola bar
repeat of sandwich from earlier
one package (of six) peanut butter cracker sandwiches
homemade cheesy pasta with whole wheat linguine noodles, a splash of milk, about a tbsp of whipped cream cheese, some grated swiss cheese, and about a tbsp of skim milk, as well as spices like garlic salt, cayenne pepper and crushed red pepper flakes (delish)
one glass of riesling to go with my pasta creation :)
i feel like my diet needs a total overhaul right now. i haven’t had any food in the house for the past week or so, because i’ve been trying to hold off on buying groceries (starving college student here). my stomach has been acting up the past few days, and i know it’s because i have not been eating right.
so tomorrow, monday, is the start of the new week (my first week as a college graduate, actually) and back to my good eating habits. the problem is, i feel like i don’t even know what to buy and what to eat, because it feels like it’s been so long!
maybe a little trip to the grocery store will jump start my memory. i hope so!